The last day of the year.. People often say that today is the best time to reflect over the doings through the days in the year, and make resolution for changes in the upcoming year. Therefore, I'm here again, reflecting through the year and to say goodbye to the things I could have done better and to thanksgiving to the people who have been there with me this year and the things that they do that would impact my life.
This year, have been a year full of ups and downs. Many thing have began to make visible changes and inevitably I have changed too. Through the year, there were many events that have happened that makes me cringe in embarrassment or in self-despair, yet there were many memories that were made during the process that makes my heart felt warm and will always be kept in my mind as my fuel for motivation in times of despair and uncertainty.
I had hit the final year of my diploma life in Temasek Polytechnic this year. If I were to say that I wasn't feel a sense of dread for the upcoming graduation in may, I would have been cheating the world and myself. I have been trying to work things out well this year but procrastination have been biggest devil in my life and I am shamed to say that I always succumb to its temptation to kick back and relax for awhile or it doesn't hurt to work it out tomorrow instead. Procrastination, therefore, made my first term of the final year a big living hell when I was working through projects. My grades wasn't fantastic, but because of that, it wasn't the best either. I had always wonder if it's too late to work it out right again with the next upcoming modules through my three years but only to realize by the time when I was in the lab getting ready for the supplementary paper NMM that I no longer have time. I was only left with my internship and my major project to set things out right.
Thankfully my internship turn out fine, despite me dreading to go to work due to the mundane task I was sent to. he people there were nice to me and I have to admit that even though the assigned task was mundane, I had still enjoy the companion of my colleague at work. Daniel, the ever joking supervisor sitting directly in front of me, is always late for his appointment meetup. Honestly, I was worried that he might be the kind who would be extremely strict even with a smiley face but thankfully, he wasn't. Veemal, the CEO who could never call my name right and gives creepy smile when walking down the cricking stairs. He was the man who made us smile on the first day with cheesy smile and optimistic talks. He ended up being the man that we thought Daniel was, yet we learn a lot from him. Nandar, the sweet new accountant that took over Ann became the best lunch buddy due to the small age gap. Always finding way to kill time together in the ever empty first floor was never something I would forget. Finally, there was Nitshant and Damon, who I only managed to know them for a month or two. They were nice though I keep escaping silly work loads from them more than often. This people are the ones I would really give thanks to for my internship and for my first mini step into the really working industry.
Major project thats on the go on is really... I don't know how I could describe but definitely it's not on par yet. I hope we could work this out well and good enough and really thank you for the two of them who is working with me all this while. Liying might have been the most spaced out person but she does have her positive points. Syakina have been the one who have accompany me through the three years in TP. We might not have been the closest people together in school, but having her accompanying me through the years was really comforting to me. Hope we would remain friends for a long time.
Other than my happenings in school, many changes was done with my personal growth and with the way I interact with the people around me. I would just want to say thanks to the people around me for tolerating me, and also sorry if I have hurt you in any way that I didn't realize.
Joyce, the
Dawn, the crazy angsty jrock-turn-kpop buddy that I would give anything for, thank you for appearing in my life though I should thank Joyce instead since she is our mutual friend to begin with. Babe, it might sound cheesy and lesbian-ish but you were the light in my life this year. Many memories I had this year was all created by you and Joyce. I couldn't ask more to have you both in my life. You are always there to care for the people around you but you never did cared much for yourself. How selfless can one get? Please take care of yourself too dear, Joyce and I will worry a lot. 船到桥头自然直 so babe, please don't worry so hard and make yourself all squirmy about university. We can all make it! From now onwards, lets work hard together alright? だいすく 友達 (pardon me for my 'half-bucket-of-water' japanese. >//< you know what i mean.)
Queenie, my wife for the past 13 years, thank you for being there though at a point of time we didn't talk and it killed you so badly. I am sorry for being a coward this year and leaving you hanging on your own. I bet I missed out a lot in your life right? Like your graduation, and your first job and everything else. Even your birthday. I'm so sorry babe and I hope I could mend them back through the years. Thanks for listening to my nonsense through the years. Even though I'm the older one, but it seems like you are the one always clear of what to do, and where to led us in our next decision. Babe, what should I even do without you. Thank you so much and i love you so so much.
Merrilyn, my soulmate. You have gotten yourself a boyfriend this year uh? Congratulations on finding your other half after the many worry halfs you went through through the years. It was sad that we had drifted so much and it hurt quite a bit when you didn't realize that in a way or another. I was really mad at you and all through the year but now I would like to say this: sorry for making you feel miserable too when I was throwing you the silly cold shoulder for a couple of months. I was really childish and felt like my bestie was being snatched away when you spend more time with your boyfriend than hanging out with the clique of us. I only came to realize that it was difficult for you and for me cause we all will change and grow up eventually. The procedure just happen to speed up a little too fast because you found a boyfriend and a job that cause you to make you step a couple of steps ahead of me. Sorry for that, and thank you for trying to accommodate to my crazy doings. We are still soulmates right? Hope things hadn't changed for the irreversible worse! Thank you and sorry!
Shiming and Fareha, the two inspirits buddies that came knocking at my door when I was hanging alone without anyone. You both are my joy of happiness, y' know? Despite knowing each other since last year, we only manage to get closer because of infinite. I should really thank those seven angels isn't it? Because of them I got to know a lot of people, and also because of them I got to know you babes! You guys are awesome, and I never fail to laugh till my cheeks hurt! Thanks babies, you guys will always be somewhere close in my heart. :)
Harry Potter Clique, we never did changed our names ever since that outing didn't we? Thanks for always popping a small message on whatsapp to check on everyone's doing. I would smile when I see messages from the chatgroup. You babes are great! All the best with school and work alright? I strongly believe in you guys. :)
Sam and Denise, I can't seem to separate you both. Maybe because you guys are always together, or maybe because I can't seem to not hear the other name from each person's mouth whenever I talk to you both. Your friendship makes me envious. Stay like this alright? I would talk to you guys more from now on! HEE.
Unglams and 村姑s, the crazy babes since secondary school. Half of my youth are dedicated to you peeps, running around in school and hiding away from demanding teachers. Those days are always worth remembering isn't it? I am glad to have you guys still with me after all this years. Lets stay as close as possible alright? Love you all loads.
To be honest, there are many more people I would love to give thanks to and say sorry yet action speaks louder than words isn't it? In 2012, many memories and regrets were created, let 2013 changed the bad for the good uh?
Thank you 2012, I'll be anticipating for 2013.