When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here
She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Radiohead's Creep.
Hey there.
Yess,its usual that I'm here saying this.
Iamboredandspazzingaroundagain.
I like that song.Its nice and I know half of my friends wouldn't like it.
Especially Annabel.
She most probably would say...
"Eww,why you like this kind of song?Where got nice?"
Yah,the interpretion that my head gives me for her version of saying.
Oh well,that isn't really the issue because I would just rebut and keep the entire debate going.
I want to talk about something that is random,
before I decide to use my brain juices on racking ideas for my art,again.
I want to talk about my dream house.
I am so going to stay outside when I grow older.
Studio Apartment?I heard that its small,not very small.
And its just a hall that contains bedroom,living room and kitchen in one,
and of course the most important,a bathroom.
Thats the kind of house I want,not too big.
Or maybe a cottage kind with a cute lawn outside.
Thats if I got married or something.
My house has got to be painted with blue,white and gold.
Why?Because the theme of my house is going to be baby sky.
I know it reminds people of Kiss the baby sky.
Well,a small little idea came from there and the bigger part of it came from scenery.
Oh please,look outside the window every morning now then.
The scenery of morning sky in breath-taking.
And I am not joking.
The light blue with dilute white patches..
It really has this calm effect..well,at least on me.
Wouldn't it be wonderful if you get to live between the clouds in the sky?
Makes a dreamy effect.HAHA.
I love it like never before,i promise you.
HAHA.
The floor has to be carpetted.Gives a nice feeling with feet and you wouldn't fall unnecessary.
HAHA.
I want a big bed with beign sheets and pillows.
A king or queen size will do.
Then I'll lace it with my mickey without minne mouse softies all around.
I think I'm the one of the only few who loves mickey mouse but not minnie mouse.
HAHA.Well,I don't care.
I want a small,cute kitchen.There isn't a really big need for a stove since I can't cook.
No point in having one that keeps dust.
I want a microwave and an oven!I want to learn how to bake instead.
Cookies and Cakes..Tiramisu cakes..Chocolate cookies..HAHA.
I'll get diabeties at the rate I go with sweet stuffs.HAHA.
Lets sidetrack a little,do you know whats the meaning behind Tiramisu?
It meant 'take my love with you'
Isn't it sweet?Give that cake to your lover man!
Its like an indirect love confession to your special one there.
That would be so lovely isn't it?
Okay,back to the main topic again,my dream house.
I want my bed against the drop-glass.
The whole pannel of windows where you can lean against your bed
and stare out into the night sky,have a book that interest you or something interesting
and a cup of tea to drink..Thats one good enjoyment there.
A good place for inspiration to kick in and create the best music or playscript.
Thats what I believe in.
I want a small little corner for my keyboard or piano and recording stuffs.
I'm aiming to be a composer.HAHA.
Don't know if that would work out but I would try.
That place has definitely got to be the quietest place in the entire place.
Then I can play my inspiration and get inspired.yups.
I want a cute little sofa near my door,against the wall there.
Then tv at the corner side with my table where the computer is.
I'm going to leave a big space in the middle of the house
where I can laze around with friends who do sleepover at my house.
We can roll around,laugh at ridiculous things and
talk the night out looking at the sky through the drop-glass.
I want a small bath-tub in my toilet.
That is so that I can relax after a long day of whatever I have done.
Oh!Not forgetting to mention,I need to have a place at the end of my bed with my beanies!
They are there to be my relaxation with a small little cabinet at the side
place with the books of my interest and my CDs(I can't live without them)
and my CD player with my other electronics like handphone and ipods.
I need not have a big walk-in dressing room like annabel's.
I just need a small closet with my clothes neatly folded in it.
HAHA.My dream house.
Really quite dreamy.